4.03.2012

Chaos.

These past couple of days have been some of the hardest of this new year. A lot of things have hit me all at once. I've spent a majority of the past 2 days waiting for my work day to be over so I can go home and try to forget the stress I've been going through.

To be honest, I have felt very much defeated. I feel like I get to a point where I am so happy and encouraged by how well things are going, and then I fall down. Normally, I'd be so eager to pick myself back up and start fresh, but since there have been multiple issues, I have felt very torn down these past two days. I have felt betrayed by people I am supposed to be able to trust, my emotions and my body. I'm anxious for a new day tomorrow, but I thought that today would be a good day for me to blog, because in the midst of this chaos, I am still learning.

God has a way of always showing me that He is ever present in my life. Today, I was emotionally drained, on the brink of tears, I had a couple of setbacks at work, but I am so beyond blessed to work with people who are encouraging and make my days so much easier. As I thought about how one hurtful comment could have sent my on edge emotions into a full emotion breakdown, I thought of a verse that I was at the back of my mind.

"Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones." - Proverbs 16:24.

I am thankful for people who have wisely chosen their words today. I am hoping to now always choose my words wisely. I have had such a reality check of why it is so important to make sure I am not degrading people in my speech, but encouraging them and having an attitude of thankfulness.

Today, has been a rollercoaster. I'm excited for the opportunities and new beginnings tomorrow will bring, but I am heartbroken at the hurt that yesterday has left me with. I am praying for a soul that can be strong in the face of defeat and know that I can hold steadfast to the promises of God.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11

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